i have been feeling sad these two days.i tink i'm easily influenced at the age of 17.read my frend's blog n i realised i'm really a bad frend.she said sth like 17 is supposed to be a age of enjoying yr teens or sth like tt i can't really rmb.tt lend me to ponder the yr which i've jus been through.there have been alot of unhappiness n i tink i've found true frends who really helped me pull through dis tough yr.though my 17 is neither enjoyable nor happy but i tink it really makes me grow n tink more than i do wen i was in the past.izzit becox i tink alot tt's y i am unhappy tt often.i feel fortunate n blessed all of a sudden.i duno y i get mixed feelings sometimes wen i am 17 which i dun used to in the past.is tt a process of growing?do i experience tt even more in the future?i've been tinking lately tt i wana live my life to the best n enjoy every moment of my life to the fullest but can i do tt?i agree tt how many pple in the world can do the tings they wan in life or now at the age of 17.studying wat they like n enjoying teenage.does everyone work towards tt btw?i'm nt sure whether i am.

btw ytd i saw 2 angmohs on the bus.one of them was talking so loudly tt the whole bus can hear his american accent.i can hear him even wen i am hearing my mp3 so imagine man.he was like saying he comes from sarawak or sort of stays there permantly..somemore ask the guy beside him if he noes where sarawak is.i duno if i caught the correct place but its has the same pronounciation as sarawak.i was pondering over the whole bus journey if his angmoh is talking to a frend or stranger cox i was sitting in front of them so i can't c their movement n stuff.

i am gg shopping again tmr.i hope shopping cheers me up.i am meeting my cousin 2.its been a long time since we have last met..like months?i realised my mum can't slp recently.izzit becox daddy went overseas?i shall ask her tmr.hah.i miss daddy all of a sudden though we dun really talk.